Friday, October 30, 2009

8 Weeks

I am horrified by the smell of the Halloween potluck down the hall from my office. I will puke on you party-goers. Beware. And stop bothering me about coming down, I really can't get any closer without a gas mask. Damn me for not thinking about that for my costume before!!!

So yes, more first trimester misery. Tired, sick, anxious, moody (Hi Chris! How's that going for ya?!), pudgy, and yet nobody knows. I had my first doctor visit this month, and have my second ultrasound scheduled for next Monday. I cannot wait. I have had multiple breakdowns this week of the pre-parenting FAIL variety, and have cried to Live's "Lightning Flashes" on the way to work. Yes, it is that bad. On Thursday I forgot to ask if the useless seasonal flu shot contained thimersol before they stuck it in my arm and into my baby's blood supply - so I called Chris sobbing about 3 hours after the doctor appointment - and he so rationally suggested I call the doctor and find out if it was in there. After explaining to the receptionist what thimersol was, she was able to find out that no, they don't even carry the shots with thimersol in them. Safe, but I obviously have not gotten this whole question thing down yet. They had the H1N1 shot, but are only giving it to pregnant women over 32 weeks, so hopefully my fellow coworkers use their time off and don't come into work sick. Chris has been a trooper, we are only 8 weeks in and I have put him through a lot, and he is taking everything I dish out with a "thank you, can I have another." I know I will feel better as long as this ultrasound shows a normal heartbeat.

On to our weekly update!

How far along: 8 weeks

Total weight gain/loss: Wow, I didn't realize this, but I gained about 5 pounds. Although sometimes scales are off by that much. Right? Reassurance here!
Maternity clothes: Some of my clothes are tighter, I'm not rushing out to the stores yet.
Stretch Marks: Not looking forward to this.
Sleep: Yup, still tired. But now I have started waking up for about 2-3 hours every night and I'm unable to get back to sleep. FUN!
Best moment last week: Holding Erin and Josh's 1 week old baby. I cannot believe that I will create something that helpless and that precious! I am scared to bring a baby that small home!
Movement: Apparently the baby started making movements this week. Go baby! Can't wait until I know you're there!!!
Cravings: Grapefruit. Bagels & Cream Cheese. Warm peanut butter cookies with vanilla ice cream. Hell's Kitchen peanut butter on toast.
Labor Signs: This question is dumb.
Belly Button in or out: Ditto for now.
What I miss: Energy. Working out. Sleeping on my stomach.
What I am looking forward to: Hearing the baby's heartbeat I hope I hope I hope!!!
Milestones: First doctor's appointment was this week - it took forever. Glad to have it out of the way though. Once a month until week 30! I thought I was being so smart and had written down all my questions for my first appointment, and I forgot the whole notebook.

Saturday, October 24, 2009

7 Weeks

So yesterday was actually 7 weeks, but we were travelling all day to St Louis for a wedding. I'm writing this right now in one of those hotel business centers hoping that people don't come in and read everything over my shoulder. I've had a lot more nausea/gaggy/pukey feelings this week, and a lot more nerves. I start to freak out when I'm not nauseous, and then 5 minutes later I'm scoping out trash cans and calculating how much time it would take me to get over there and how embarassing it would be if I did. I have not actually puked yet...and I hope not to at all! This trip is kind of hard, my brother and his girlfriend Liv know I'm pregnant, but nobody else does. So I can't drink and I'm exhausted and a little moody and it only makes sense to some of the people around me. This week my baby is the size of a blueberry! And has little paddles for hands and feet!!! How freaking cute is that?! I waver between knowing everything is going to be fine, and oh my god everything is not fine...why don't they sell home ultrasound equipment?!?! Also, I have watched entirely too many "Baby Story" type shows on TLC - because how cute are those floppy soft little babies - but oh my god that baby is going to come out of my vagina. Seriously.

And on that note, on with the weekly update!

How far along: 7 weeks 1 day

Total weight gain/loss: 2 pounds lost! Take that Italy! Remove me from the influence of gelato and the weight just melts off. Has nothing to do with the fact that cookies induce nausea now.

Maternity clothes: Nope nope nope. I'm getting a little bloated belly though. Not too worried about it yet.

Stretch Marks: Not yet.

Sleep: Am Exhausted. I'm considering telling work early after my appointment next week confirming everything is fine. I just don't have the energy...for anything. I want to sleep all the time, and Chris is being awesome. He's totally taking care of me...because I come home from work, plop myself on the couch, and basically don't move.

Best moment last week: Hmmmm...actually making it out of the house for a run/walk around the lake with my puppy. I'm not supposed to get out of breath so we're scaling back our workouts, but I was so proud of myself for making it out of the house. GO ME!

Movement: Does gas count?

Cravings: Grapefruit. I love you grapefruit.

Labor Signs: Nothing yet, and we're keeping it that way!

Belly Button in or out: In.

What I miss: Still with the pooping. Hopefully all this fruit I'm craving will work it's magic.

What I am looking forward to: Hearing the baby's heartbeat next week. I will hopefully have an u/s next Thursday!!!

Milestones: This little peanut has an appendix now - an utterly useless organ, but there it is!

Friday, October 16, 2009

6 Weeks

So I'm not posting these, just saving them. I want to document this pregnancy week by week, but if The Worst were to happen, I don't want to have to explain it to everyone! So yes, I'm PREGNANT!! Baby was conceived on September 18th, 2009 and it's estimated due date is June 11th, 2010. It was a total surprise. I found out the day before we left for Italy, so this kid already has impeccable timing (no wine or unpasteurized cheese for me!). I didn't mind one bit though. We have been trying for a baby for 13 months. I was about to start fertility treatments because of some conditions that I have, when we unexpectedly conceived naturally! This baby is very wanted, it's our little miracle baby. I keep telling it that it has to stick in there, because there's no other baby competition out there in my family and this kid is going to be spoiled rotten. I found this update thing to keep track of your pregnancy week by week and I think it looks like fun. If it's TMI for you, then don't read it!

How far along: 6 weeks
Total weight gain/loss: Truthfully, I don't know. I've been scared to weigh myself after getting back from vacation. I have never eaten so much pizza in my life and I'm sure it's done a number to my numbers already.
Maternity clothes: Not even close. Although I noticed it's a little uncomfortable when I wear tight pants. Baby needs its room!
Stretch Marks: None to speak of, I'm expecting a lot :(
Sleep: Lots of naps. Not only am I recovering from jet lag, but I'm creating life and all. I feel tired almost all the time! I did have a little trouble staying asleep last night, but logged 9 hours total after falling back asleep.
Best moment last week: Telling my parents and brother! I have never seen my mom so excited, it was one of the best moments of my life.
Movement: Nada. There's a whole lot of zinging little feelings going on down there though!
Cravings: Italy I wanted Gelato all the time, but food is starting to get kind of weird. Not sure if I'm coming down with something or if I'm going to end up with morning sickness. I'm hoping it's all in my head?
Labor Signs: Dear god no, we are hoping for another 34 weeks here!
Belly Button in or out: In.
What I miss: I missed out on drinking wine in Italy, and caprese salad. Oh, and pooping. I miss pooping.
What I am looking forward to: Getting to 12-14 weeks so I can tell people and feel like this is really going to happen!
Milestones: My baby's got a heartbeat! (Haven't heard it yet, but that's what all the literature says!)